Monday, October 25, 2010

And in the midst of it all....

It's just one of those days.  The weather is gray, drizzly, and sodden - glum in a way that only the rust belt can do.   I'm supposed to be working on my novel revision (which is finally going well) but I'm jumpy and can't concentrate because my sister in law (who has brain cancer) is in crisis.  So I feel guilty about not getting my work done (you know the drill) and heartbroken for my sister in law, her husband, her kids, and her big brother - my dear husband who has already lost one sister.

Yet....  when I went to let the dog out, waiting irritably in the rain while he did his doggy thing, I saw  the cups of the nasturtium leaves, a raindrop gem in each one, like transitory white star sapphires.  And in that moment I went from miserable to enchanted, running to get my camera, standing delightedly in the rain (while, in a nice turnabout, my dog waited impatiently for me to finish up my foolishness) trying to capture even a tiny bit of the casual perfect beauty nature made.

These are the things that save me every day.

6 comments:

YELLOWDOG GRANNY said...

candles lit and prayers sent for you sil...how sad for the family.
and I just love that picture. Nasturtiums are one of my favorite flowers..so much for so little.

jason said...

keeping her (and him....and YOU) in prayer right now.

Anonymous said...

It is a real gift to find beauty in the world at a time like this for your family.
Dayle

a thousand shades of twilight said...

Still thinking of you all and wishing you the best. Thank God for nasturtiums - one of my favourites! It's great that you can still see this random beauty.

Xena said...

I think it's beautiful and amazing you still have so much love for life and you seem to be a pretty romantic woman, even with all the pressures in life including being a mother to 4--which i imagine must be a huge, HUGE responsibility. I love this. I wish more ~grownups~ I know who are all settled with children and family could be more like you :)

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Yet.... when I went to let the dog out, waiting irritably in the rain while he did his doggy thing, I saw the cups of the nasturtium leaves, a raindrop gem in each one, like transitory white star sapphires. And in that moment I went from miserable to enchanted,