Monday, March 31, 2008

Nick Cave - Into My Arms

The Knuckle head will go in for surgery on tuesday. I know how this goes, having done it before. We'll wake at dawn and drive the empty early-morning streets, to the hospital. While they prep him, we'll chat about nothing in particular. I'll joke around, make him laugh, at himself, at me, at what we're going through. It's what I do, and one of the reasons he loves me. They'll put him on the gurney and give him something to relax him. Then they'll get ready to wheel him away. I'll walk with him, holding his hand, as far as they'll let me. When I can't go any farther, I'll kiss him, tell him that I love him. We've been together so long that simply saying "I love you" transmits everything - that he is the pillar of my life, that I am the light and air of his. Then I'll watch as they wheel him through double doors and away, and I'll go into the waiting room. I'll be for many hours. I'll listen to this song a lot - it is simply one of the most beautiful songs ever written - and I'll pray as best I can, and wait for him to come back to me.

14 comments:

yellowdog granny said...

i can't even imagine what you are going through...i wish i was there to hold your hand, give you a hug, pat your back and tell you everything is going to be ok....im sending up many prayers to the goddess..love..your friend..jackie

Elizabeth said...

Thanks darlin'.

Willym said...

I'll be praying with you. Holding you all very close in my heart.

Doralong said...

Many thoughts and prayers will be with you and yours-

mumbliss said...

Hey dear ones,
It will work out well. It's just getting from here to there, as it always is, that is the bumpy part. Sigh... you are doing a great job and we love you so much. Loving people hurts like hell when they are suffering. There is nothing quite like it. But then again, I guess I wouldn't give it up either. You are in my thoughts and prayers and in my blood and bones. I love you. You have something that very few people have in your love for each other. You are deeply blessed. Hang in there. Maybe you can plan a wonderful vacation together when he feels better.

Claire M. Johnson said...

If you need to scream or just mumble while you're waiting, give me a call on my cell. Am here for you.

Anonymous said...

I might be across the country, but am sending all my good thoughts for the surgery!
love from your friend in California!
jan

sageweb said...

I will be having good thoughts about you and your family all day tomorrow. Wish I could be there to entertain you for a few of those long hours.

pat said...

I'll be thinking of you and sending you my bestest, E.

Java said...

You do the same sort of thing I do. I've been there laughing and making light when my Superman was lying on the gurney. We haven't faced anything quite this big, though. My heart is full for you, for him, for the family. Blessings, and may you feel the sweet relief tomorrow when all is over and well. And have a good cry.

Jeff said...

Sending you all the best ions from the World O Jeff- plus love and prayers for all of you.

more cowbell said...

Good thoughts, Elizabeth. I know this is incredibly rough on all of you. Hang in, girl.

mumbliss said...

Dear e,
I am home with a sick child. I am sending love and prayers all day. I am sure that all will go well. Hugs to all, except for Knuckle head, I don't want to hurt him. You can kiss him on the top of his knuckle head for me. I love you, m

SubtleKnife said...

Thinking of you. Hoping all is going well.

*hugs*